"Spin" in aviation training: a "stall" or loss of lift, a subsequent nose-down spin, the specific actions required for recovery, and the feeling, after recovery, that you could tackle absolutely anything!

Friday, 11 November 2011


Let it go.
Open up and let the hard howl of your inner traveler
Echo off of your back teeth;
The frustration of this trip.
Seize, with a gasp, one worn claw of the 
Fear bristling at your future,
And pull it all up and out; incoherent at first, but
Soon constant and cathartic.
Squeeze all of the air out of your fists.
Fall apart.
Completely fall apart, and 
Twist, relent to exhaustion.

Spin as you feel.
There is no procedure,
No punctuation or critical path.

There is no wrong way to be sad.

And as you seek calm,
Jousting with the hitch in your breath,
You'll find my arms around you; 'been close from the start.
And I will hold you, and
Hold you, and
Hold you,
Because I've done that dance.
I've searched for the smooth pulse and the
Composure I was supposed to have.
I've fought against 
Falling apart.
But eventually, I know, the beast, healthy from
Feasting each time you're unsure; sadness and fear,
Tears through.
So yes,
Let it go.

Those never moved to howl cannot imagine ...
Cannot even come close.

1 comment:

  1. Wow, this is so powerful, it rips right through me.
    Nice work Suz...